I am struggling terribly with eating healthy. I mean I do eat healthy. Healthier than most people I know. But now that I have this body fat percentage goal it seems like I shouldn’t eat anything. And by restricting myself so severely I couldn’t be hungrier. Not hungry because I didn’t eat but hungry because I didn’t eat what I really wanted to. Or possibly should have. And I’m now craving food that I didn’t crave before. The food fight is never ending. And after a battle, whether I’ve won or not, I either feel mad that I “won” and didn’t eat that desert or guilty that I “lost” and did eat the cheese quesadilla.
My workouts are pretty intense. But it’s not like I’m working out all the time. So they shouldn’t be causing this intense hunger. It has to be my mind fighting to let go of bad habits. I’m a snacker, a grazer. I love to eat a lot of different things instead of a meal. So if I eat a nice protein packed meal after a workout I’m left feeling unfulfilled because I didn’t get to eat my favorite snacks. It’s totally got bad habit written all over it. I got up and had a handful of pistachios last night while watching TV. When I was done I realized I was tired and wanted to go to bed. I looked at the clock and it was 10:30. Of course I was tired. Why did I just eat?!
Let’s break this down and really see what I am doing wrong.
- Observe: Well, I’m already drinking more water because they say your often actually thirsty , not hungry. I know I often feel full but still want that one last snack before bedtime (like I mentioned above). It’s like my day is not complete unless I’ve had some of everything. Low energy has been happening too. I wonder if I cut out too much or if I’m not eating the right type of food for a particular meal. Like lunch before an evening workout. What should that consist of?
- Savor: Oh, I have this one down. I eat very slow, chew a lot. I enjoy what goes into my mouth. I’m not taking any bite for granted.
- In-the-moment: Besides when we are at a restaurant I don’t think I ever just eat. At work I eat in front of my computer. At home in front of the TV. This one could definitely improve.
- Nonjudgment: Now this is the hardest one. The guilt I feel after eating sweats or cheese is overwhelming. It’s hard to even enjoy them to be honest. What’s the point if as soon as I swallow I feel like I piece of crap loser?
So how does one overcome these battles with food? Some might say use your wheel power. Others say everything in moderation. But I don’t appear to have the wheel power and I have a goal to meet. This is why I never set goals or strive to achieve anything out of reach. Fear of failure is to strong. I never give myself credit for my progress or effort. Instead I envision a complete disaster.
I was, however, thinking of a solution today. Instead of just removing items from my everyday diet I need to replace them with something more nutritious. There has to be a compromise. I’m never going to reach my goal if I only allow myself to eat chicken and broccoli. I’ll go crazy. And I love vegetables. I’m the first to attack the veggies at a party. I’m so excited that someone else took the time to chop them up for me. But I’m no cook. So I don’t have the ability to take plain vegetables and make them irresistible. I can eat them raw or steam them. That’s about it. And so much for dipping them into something. I can’t think of a single acceptable dip.
I suppose I should end this with some insight or encouragement. My posts have been pretty decent thus far. Let’s see. I’m just not feeling good. It’s hard to fake it even on the computer. Let me look at what I do “right” and end on that.
- Majority of what I eat is fresh, preservative free protein and vegetables.
- I drink water all day everyday.
- I treat myself to gelato on the weekends.
- I workout 3 to 4 times a week.
- (this is harder than it looks)
- I try to get at least 7 hours of sleep every night.
Ultimately being aware of what I’m eating is a success.